I finally after all these years feel that I understand what I'm called to do.
I understand that I'm still in the learning stages, and so it won't immediately look this way, but the more I step out and obey, the more it should look this way.
I have a heart to pray for the sick and the injured, and faith that they WILL be healed right in front of my eyes. My heart is to reveal to those who do not believe or who are unsure, that they have a father in heaven that loves them and is real.
I believe that God is giving me this prompting to go out and to trust that as I lay hands on the sick, they will feel the holy spirit and they will be healed.
I can't express how excited it makes me to know that God will show up as I prayer for strangers, atheists, agnostics, Christians, seekers.... Basically everyone I can get my hands on! :0)
I believe that this is in every single one of us Christians, if we would believe and go do it. I don't want anyone to think that I believe I have some special gift or anything like that. This is in all of us that want to follow it!
And I DO want to follow it, with all my heart... All day long just go and pray and talk with those that are hurting and in need of our fathers love.
I've been doing this for the last couple weeks in my spare time, going out on the streets and praying for people. It's something that grows each time I do it. The experiences get more and more intense and amazing. People experience more and more of the holy spirit.... To the point that some of the cry within the first few seconds of prayer.
The world is hurting and desperately need to know that they have a father who cares for them.
My heart is to show that to as many people as I can possibly meet in a day!
Compassion will take you over if you let it. Love will lead your life if you dare to let it consume you.
Let it.
Thursday, July 26, 2012
Thursday, July 12, 2012
Love perfected
This week has been very amazing. God has been revealing his heart more and more to me about love and compassion.
I have been going out and praying for people almost every day since I started last week, and it's been challenging and amazing! I've walked the streets in Rosarito and have gone to the red light district in Tijuana. I'm learning more and more how to be bold and go against my flesh and my fear to give the love that Christ gave to the world.
He lives in each on of us, and we are called to do the things that he did. I believe that the more that I step out in what he gave us authority to do (like healing) the more I will see him manifest through me.
Sometimes I think he is just waiting for people who will be radical, and will step outside of themselves to see the people that they pass by each day. The more that we are faithful in that, the more we see his power.
I have heard it said that the evidence of faith is that the mountain moves. Right now in this process I am at the place of simply having the faith to go out and speak to the mountain despite outcome. I am getting past the fear and apathy that has poisoned me all my life.
The most exciting thing is that the more I do it, the more supernatural things have been occurring.
People we've been praying for have immediately begun crying as we lay our hands on them, claiming that they feel something inside while we're praying, and they can't explain it. I am so excited because I know that they are experiencing the father.
The more that I have been stepping out, the more I am personally experiencing the father. He is showing me his heart for me as I am loving on the unloved.
I dare say that I am experiencing what it means to lose your life in order to gain it.
I have been spending a lot of time in the word, and like never before the words are piercing deep into my soul and breathing life into every part of me that had been blinded or cold.
I'm waking up and I'm coming to life.
I never want to stop.
I have been going out and praying for people almost every day since I started last week, and it's been challenging and amazing! I've walked the streets in Rosarito and have gone to the red light district in Tijuana. I'm learning more and more how to be bold and go against my flesh and my fear to give the love that Christ gave to the world.
He lives in each on of us, and we are called to do the things that he did. I believe that the more that I step out in what he gave us authority to do (like healing) the more I will see him manifest through me.
Sometimes I think he is just waiting for people who will be radical, and will step outside of themselves to see the people that they pass by each day. The more that we are faithful in that, the more we see his power.
I have heard it said that the evidence of faith is that the mountain moves. Right now in this process I am at the place of simply having the faith to go out and speak to the mountain despite outcome. I am getting past the fear and apathy that has poisoned me all my life.
The most exciting thing is that the more I do it, the more supernatural things have been occurring.
People we've been praying for have immediately begun crying as we lay our hands on them, claiming that they feel something inside while we're praying, and they can't explain it. I am so excited because I know that they are experiencing the father.
The more that I have been stepping out, the more I am personally experiencing the father. He is showing me his heart for me as I am loving on the unloved.
I dare say that I am experiencing what it means to lose your life in order to gain it.
I have been spending a lot of time in the word, and like never before the words are piercing deep into my soul and breathing life into every part of me that had been blinded or cold.
I'm waking up and I'm coming to life.
I never want to stop.
Saturday, July 7, 2012
Yesterday was the first day that I went out and evangelized and healed in the name of Jesus.
Let me just say that I was met with such a pleasant surprise by the Holy Spirit.
I had been preparing that I would go out for several months without seeing immediate fruit of the work. But, Holy spirit had other plans. We prayed for about 20 people and saw amazing things! One mans back was healed and the pain completely gone!!!
I have videos of all the people we prayed for, and I'm going to make a small video for you guys!
God is good! And when we step out in faith we get to see what he wants to do in us at all times!
Fear is our biggest enemy, and the biggest reason we don't see the spirit of God fall. We all want to see his spirit fall, and we pray to see the spirit fall, but we refuse to obey his commands to go and heal the sick, cast out demons, and preach the gospel.
Revival starts with our obedience! When we step out despite our fear, we set ourselves up in a place of dependancy on the spirit, and boy he loves that!!! He is just WAITING for us to have faith and trust him that way!
Faith is proved by the mountain moved, but faith is also proved by us going out and speaking to the mountain in the first place! Lets not let our past experiences determine the word of God!
Let us not love our own lives even unto death! Lets start being known by our passion as Christians, and letting fear have such a grip on us that we forget WHO we belong to.
I am learning how to be more bold. How to not let this world or fear or danger determine my faith in my pappa. It's time to put myself in positions that are uncomfortable so that PAPPA can show up!
LET HIS NAME BE GLORIFIED!
Let me just say that I was met with such a pleasant surprise by the Holy Spirit.
I had been preparing that I would go out for several months without seeing immediate fruit of the work. But, Holy spirit had other plans. We prayed for about 20 people and saw amazing things! One mans back was healed and the pain completely gone!!!
I have videos of all the people we prayed for, and I'm going to make a small video for you guys!
God is good! And when we step out in faith we get to see what he wants to do in us at all times!
Fear is our biggest enemy, and the biggest reason we don't see the spirit of God fall. We all want to see his spirit fall, and we pray to see the spirit fall, but we refuse to obey his commands to go and heal the sick, cast out demons, and preach the gospel.
Revival starts with our obedience! When we step out despite our fear, we set ourselves up in a place of dependancy on the spirit, and boy he loves that!!! He is just WAITING for us to have faith and trust him that way!
Faith is proved by the mountain moved, but faith is also proved by us going out and speaking to the mountain in the first place! Lets not let our past experiences determine the word of God!
Let us not love our own lives even unto death! Lets start being known by our passion as Christians, and letting fear have such a grip on us that we forget WHO we belong to.
I am learning how to be more bold. How to not let this world or fear or danger determine my faith in my pappa. It's time to put myself in positions that are uncomfortable so that PAPPA can show up!
LET HIS NAME BE GLORIFIED!
Thursday, July 5, 2012
Re present the Christ.
SO tomorrow starts the big day!
After lunch I will go out on the streets and see what God does! I am so excited I can barely contain myself!
I am excited not to put a limit on what God can do through me. I am excited for the people I will come in contact with to feel the love of God. I am excited to be BOLD!
I think this world has not yet fully known all that God can do with someone who doesn't let fear, laziness, apathy, complacency, or a miss-understanding of his heart get in the way of his power and love.
I want to be that person.
It's time to GO big or GO home.
After lunch I will go out on the streets and see what God does! I am so excited I can barely contain myself!
I am excited not to put a limit on what God can do through me. I am excited for the people I will come in contact with to feel the love of God. I am excited to be BOLD!
I think this world has not yet fully known all that God can do with someone who doesn't let fear, laziness, apathy, complacency, or a miss-understanding of his heart get in the way of his power and love.
I want to be that person.
It's time to GO big or GO home.
Tuesday, July 3, 2012
The feet of Jesus
The lord has really been speaking to me for the last six months, and it has intensified in the last month.
I want to share what he has spoken to me, and I pray that it will touch your heart as well. I pray that it would not offend but encourage you.
I have been a Christian all my life, and I left my entire life to be a missionary when I was 18. For five years I served and went all over the world, even to a country that was closed and it was illegal for me to be doing what I was doing. I had so much passion and was willing to die for the gospel.
I was missing something though.... I grew tired. I would run like a mad man and then have to stop and breathe for several months. I burnt out.
Last year God revealed to my why this happened. Please read this scripture with me:
"As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him. She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord's feet listening to what he said. But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, "lord, don't you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!"
"Martha, Martha, " the Lord answered, "you are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her." Luke 10:38-42
When you are a missionary, and especially when you work in YWAM, you can think that your whole life is spending time with God and abiding in him.... But that is not true. We can get so caught up in doing, doing, doing, that we forget to simply spend time EVERY day at the feet of Jesus. In worship, in prayer, in silence. Being renewed in our spirits and receiving his love for us, not because of what we DO but because of who we ARE: His dearly loved children.
There are many places in the world where the spirit of God is pouring down so intenslely. Miracles are very normal! People are raised from the dead, healed of sickness, crazy awesome manifestations of the spirit of God. Why are those things happening? Because they have remembered their first love, they have sought their father and lover's face first and foremost, and as Jesus promised all the rest was added to them.
Worship, prayer, and time spent with God should never be overlooked. It is where we draw our strength from. It is the way we can run and not grow weary.
In John 15 beginning in verse 5 Jesus said:
"I am the vine, you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit, apart from me you can do nothing. If anyone does not remain in me, he is like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up and thrown into the fire and burned. IF you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you. This is to my fathers glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples. As my father has loved me, so have I loved you. Remain in my love"
I have seen many fellow Christians and missionaries burn out and leave the field or stop following Jesus. Many flames burned out... I believe that it is ESSENTIAL to remain in him. So many times as our schedule fills up, time spent with God is one of the first things we cut out. I know that was how it was for me in the past. I believe you will find, as I did, that if you make THAT a priority, even when there is no time for it, you will find that you DO accomplish everything you needed to do, and with a strength you wouldn't have had otherwise.
We are called to love the Lord our God with all our strength, he is our priority!
I challenge you with this. Put him first every day. Spend time in his presence, and in worship every day and watch how your heart begins to change. Watch how you are empowered to do the good works you are called to do. Apart from him you can do nothing.
I love you all.
I want to share what he has spoken to me, and I pray that it will touch your heart as well. I pray that it would not offend but encourage you.
I have been a Christian all my life, and I left my entire life to be a missionary when I was 18. For five years I served and went all over the world, even to a country that was closed and it was illegal for me to be doing what I was doing. I had so much passion and was willing to die for the gospel.
I was missing something though.... I grew tired. I would run like a mad man and then have to stop and breathe for several months. I burnt out.
Last year God revealed to my why this happened. Please read this scripture with me:
"As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him. She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord's feet listening to what he said. But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, "lord, don't you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!"
"Martha, Martha, " the Lord answered, "you are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her." Luke 10:38-42
When you are a missionary, and especially when you work in YWAM, you can think that your whole life is spending time with God and abiding in him.... But that is not true. We can get so caught up in doing, doing, doing, that we forget to simply spend time EVERY day at the feet of Jesus. In worship, in prayer, in silence. Being renewed in our spirits and receiving his love for us, not because of what we DO but because of who we ARE: His dearly loved children.
There are many places in the world where the spirit of God is pouring down so intenslely. Miracles are very normal! People are raised from the dead, healed of sickness, crazy awesome manifestations of the spirit of God. Why are those things happening? Because they have remembered their first love, they have sought their father and lover's face first and foremost, and as Jesus promised all the rest was added to them.
Worship, prayer, and time spent with God should never be overlooked. It is where we draw our strength from. It is the way we can run and not grow weary.
In John 15 beginning in verse 5 Jesus said:
"I am the vine, you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit, apart from me you can do nothing. If anyone does not remain in me, he is like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up and thrown into the fire and burned. IF you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you. This is to my fathers glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples. As my father has loved me, so have I loved you. Remain in my love"
I have seen many fellow Christians and missionaries burn out and leave the field or stop following Jesus. Many flames burned out... I believe that it is ESSENTIAL to remain in him. So many times as our schedule fills up, time spent with God is one of the first things we cut out. I know that was how it was for me in the past. I believe you will find, as I did, that if you make THAT a priority, even when there is no time for it, you will find that you DO accomplish everything you needed to do, and with a strength you wouldn't have had otherwise.
We are called to love the Lord our God with all our strength, he is our priority!
I challenge you with this. Put him first every day. Spend time in his presence, and in worship every day and watch how your heart begins to change. Watch how you are empowered to do the good works you are called to do. Apart from him you can do nothing.
I love you all.
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